Forgiveness: Barrier or Breakthrough to Living a Soulfully Abundant and Vibrant Life
“Forgiveness is unlocking the door to set someone free and discovering you were the prisoner.”
As I was returning from running some errands and thinking about my upcoming four-week Forgiveness program beginning on May 29, I began thinking about my mother..
When I was in my late 20′s my mother told me she no longer loved my father and that she was unhappy with her life. In my parent’s generation talking about feelings and thoughts wasn’t the norm.
The fact she came to me was huge. At the age of 27, I had no words to guide or console her. I was as lost as she was.
So, feeling stuck in the “bed she made” and too terrified to make any changes, she sucked everything back in and never spoke about how she felt again.
Five years later, my mother who was a vibrant, healthy woman, was diagnosed with leukemia. And at the young age of 66 my mother died. She found a way to leave her marriage and her life.
I believe my mother was filled with regrets, self-anger, and a deep need for forgiveness that eventually turned into dis-ease. When she died, she was finally free.
That conversation with my mother was a life defining moment.
Years later I realized that I had been harboring resentments towards myself for not being able to help my mother in her time of need. Even though I worked through a lot of healing around feeling that I had “abandoned” her because I lacked the words to comfort and guide her, my breast cancer diagnosis in May 2012 revealed some deep unforgiveness I had not yet healed.
The relationship between your beliefs and carrying pain from the past stresses the auto-immune system to be vulnerable to create dis-ease. For the body’s intelligence to return to optimal health is a multi-level approach rather than focusing solely on the symptoms. Forgiveness being closure through peace and love.
Without forgiveness there is no closure; to no ability to let go and move forward. As long as you feel emotional charges anchored in anger, blame, resentments, and judgments, there is more forgiveness work to do. Learning “how to forgive” in your heart …is a process not a technique.
That is why doing the inner transformational work, working with healing modalities that feel right for you is so critical as well as having a strong community of spiritual support and a bond with God.
My health experience was full of Grace and blessings that allowed me to lift many burdens from my heart and my body.
That’s why I am so deeply committed to the inner healing and transformation work. I repeatedly say how critical it is to have the guts to look in the shadows. And that’s why I go into those dark places myself. I don’t want my life to be filled with regrets, anger, and resentments or to be too afraid to really LIVE. And I don’t want to create illness so that my life is limited by health conditions that could have been prevented!
Do you?
I feel my mother speaking to me today and reminding me of how heavy a cost we pay when we are lost in fear and suffering. How much we give up when we allow our fears and subconscious beliefs to hold up captive from fully living the life we were born to.
And how much pain we experience when we are separated from ourselves and that Divine spark when we resist the truth of who we are and live in our illusions.
Wherever you go, you take your stuff with you. And the only path to true liberation for your Light to shine brightly is THROUGH those dark places.
Suffering is a choice. Love and grace is your birthright. Forgiveness is the pathway to living a rich and vibrant life.
Love and blessings,
Lorraine
